- Something that I don't ask people much nowadays. The past few months, I've been growing more distant from people that I used to talk to everyday, people who I label as "People I cannot live without". I guess it's the change in lifestyle, maybe it's the lack of interaction opportunities. I don't really know. 

I find myself having difficulty in starting a conversation with them. I can't, there's nothing I can relate to. We all are in the military sure, but their training is leagues tougher than mine (and more importantly in this case, different.) So I can try to empathize, but not understand.

My hobbies, I seem to be losing the drive to push them further, I can't keep up with my card game playgroup. I don't have the drive to play my favorite MMO, the MMO my friends are playing, or any game in general. I've been trying to play something fresh in my library, but I end up putting it down in such a horrifyingly short time.

My projects, laying on my bed, collecting dust. So much stuff I have to learn before actually making progress. No more good editing programs, unmotivated to do digital art with my broken photoshop. 

I find myself living each day as it comes, no plans for tomorrow, just what I can do now, it's like I'm not in control of my own life anymore. I feel empty and I have felt nothing for weeks now.


It sucks, but I think it'll come to pass. I hope.